[Forward] Motion.

September disappeared, and for the life of me, I don’t know where it went.

Well, okay, that’s a bit of a lie. It was spent in classrooms and meetings, on the beach, dancing in rural town canteens at midnight, drinking coffee like nobody’s business, attempting to sleep, building ovens, moving houses, and taking a few days of vacation with friends visiting from the States..

But it feels like I blinked and now it’s gone.

I was editing photos the other day and noticed a theme:

Movement.

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When I first came to Nicaragua, I had the overwhelming sense that things moved slowly. But now, even as things around me to continue to move slow (think transportation, deadlines, communication!), I have the new sensation that things in my life are moving forward quickly.

It’s a strange, blurry place to be.

It has a rhythm and a beauty to it, but is a little nerve-wracking as well.

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I’ve now reached the point in my service where instead of counting upwards of how many months I have been here, I now am counting downwards to how many months are left.

I want to make sure I am soaking things in, really experiencing this country, this culture, this life. Really take advantage of the time I have left here.

My communities have so much movement, so much motion. So much moving forward, stepping back, moving a little more forward. It is a slow process, and part of the quiet joy I have been finding lately is letting myself just watch it happen and document it from behind my lens.

I spent a couple months trying to make sure that I was taking every opportunity that came my way, not passing up anything. But I’m realizing that for now, that is not what I need the most. What I really need to do is slow down. Watch the motion going on around me, be okay with it, and let myself enter into it when I can. But not push things. Be okay with being still, but also okay with hopping on the bicycle Nica-style (pictured below!).

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I know this may not make sense to everybody, but it is where I am at right now.

Moving.

Sometimes forward, sometimes backwards.

And occasionally bachata dance move that takes you to the side…. you know, just to keep things interesting!

Touching the Walls on Both Sides.

“The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof. What I want is so simple I almost can’t say it: elementary kindness. Enough to eat, enough to go around. The possibility that kids might one day grow up to be neither the destroyers nor the destroyed. That’s about it. Right now I’m living in that hope, running down its hallway and touching the walls on both sides.”

~ Barbara Kingsolver ~

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